I shouldn’t say that word: WEARY.
It’s taboo and looked down upon by everyone around us really. You may be tired and desperate for a rest, but don’t you dare admit it.
Women are supposed to be strong, invincible, ready and able to tackle it all. And moms – you better have it all figured out!
At least that is what the voices in my head keep telling me.
But, I am tired.
Tired of 24 hour days solo parenting while my husband works hard fighting fires (which I whole-heartedly support, by the way).
Tired of making meals and thinking of meals and making sure we are eating healthy for our bodies, minds and souls.
Tired of 2.5 year old tantrums (which, by the way, tend to be really bad until at least the age of 3.5….).
Tired of poop explosions in the library (which has happened twice now) and literally double woman-handling multiple unhappy kids in public places.
Tired of going drastically between feeling completely overwhelmed to at peace and in awe of my life and the gifts I have been given.
Tired of planning our days (or not) and fitting it in and meeting so many needs.
Tired of multitasking.
Really, really tired of multitasking. I’m good at it, but I do it all day long and it makes me weary.
There’s a light at the end of the tunnel….I think. But, then again, the fire season is always incredibly unpredictable.
There’s road trips planned. Camping trips ready to go at a day’s notice. Bucket lists for the fall (which is such a great season around here).
Adventures. As a family. All of us.
No 1 on 4 for the whole day. Because those adventures fill my soul, but also makes me give so many prayers for the families that are solo parenting all the time. Because, it’s TOUGH!
I’m also tired of people questioning how I could possibly handle it (“it” being LIFE!) all with four.
These minis are my people, my flock, my posse, my team. It may take all of me, all the time, but that also gives me strength and love and more life lessons than I ever thought I needed.
But, oh how I yearn for fall and a more predictable pace. And oh how I am thankful that we homeschooling this year so we can plan adventures beyond the constraints of the summer months (more on that later…)
For now I am dreaming of fall backpacking, winter skiing and stays in the cabin and camper and tent and the simple life that breathes fresh balance into our souls…..
And reading a book in the evening.
And putting the phone down and staying off the computer and sort of letting things go a bit…..and even journaling.
And eating dark chocolate.
Tell me – what are YOU planning for the next few months? I love to be inspired by you!
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